You are always the one...... who gets the good things, good grades and praises...... everybody looks up to you, admires you and respects you...... it is always you. I was never noticed, because my grades were not as good as yours, because I am dumb. I always do things so clumsily, I cannot get anything done right. Even my favourite subject which I think I can score well in, was not really up to standard. I am very slow in both understanding and doing things. Sometimes, I wonder if I can actually catch up with you, or even surpass you...... well, I think that is impossible. Once, just once, can I even do better than you in anything? Well, maybe a certain subject that I have a lot of interest in, which you do not. However, this subject is not important, it cannot get me anywhere. So what if I am good at it? It does not help me at all. Maybe you know this, that is why you do not put much time in it? Maybe I am just this dumb to actually put so much time and effort in doing it? I realised our intelligence difference between us is very big, because we are born like this. Although our relationship is quite close, but sometimes I am angry and jealous of you. You do not get scolded much, yet I was always the one who got scolded when I was actually doing the same thing as you were. Why? Why is it always you? Why not me? Why......?